I know I’m a bit late, but with all holiday stuff, I didn’t have much time to write a post

So I hope you had a wonderful Christmas time with your families and loved ones.

I have to admit, this Christmas wasn’t all I was hoping for. I just didn’t feel it, you know? I don’t know why, maybe because the situation at home was all  nervous and depressed. And I wasn’t able to relax and enjoy all the cookies and food like I hoped I would. I just know what’s waiting for me in Paris, so I don’t want to indulge here.

Anyways, I’m glad that the present I got for my Love is amazing, and he really loves it. I can’t wait to have a Christmas only with him, our little family.

Now about the eats. I ate soo much salmon these past few days, baked and smoked, yummy! I just adore it. Of course, there was some traditional eats too, like cooked ham and eggs, in which I enjoyed too. I guess I didn’t eat soo much of that ham, because I really dissect the slices, no strings of fat came into my mouth ) And I also had a lot of my foods, corn flakes with milk, oats and pb…oh, but I did allow myself a little treat on Christmas Eve. Few cookie bites and a cup of warm cocoa with a splash of Mozart liqueur. Perfect way to end the evening

Today, I guess I’ll manage do to some workout, although my abs are still sore from my pilates two days ago. And I hope I’ll study a bit. And prepare for my trip to Paris.

Maybe I’ll blog some more in the evening.

Have a lovely Saint Stephan’s day

Hi everyone!

I am not in a good mood.

Yesterday my day went pretty much in the drain, I didn’t do anything.Except sushi my Love made me for dinner. Well,  dinner after dinner. I didn’t have a proper lunch, so I had two dinners

Anyways, I spent the night at his house, and this morning we went to buy Christmas presents for our families. We got some amazing stuff actually.

Anyways, why am I in a bad mood a day before Christmas Eve?

My mom just keeps bugging me. I don’t understand why she acts this way. She just keeps doing and telling stupid things. For instance, she is worried all the time that I don’t eat enough, that my oats for breakfast are lousy food, and how I won’t eat anything she makes. So, today we were planning to have turkey stuffed zucchini, something I wanted.

But, today, of course she said that she doesn’t know how to make them. I mean, ok, you don’t want to make an effort, but them stop bugging me about food! I can take care of myself and my nutrition pretty well. Oh and yeah. My Love’s dad again had something to say about how I eat. He’s always telling me how I eat too much carbs, and not enough fat. Which is annoying. He doesn’t know that. I found a ratio that suits me, why do people think they now better what and how much should I eat? And btw, he really eats too much, too crapy food, and it’s really visible. Next time, I’ll respond to provocations.

I managed to do some workout today. Some kind od Dance workout from exercisetv. My HRM says I burned ~300 calories. Not bad. Of course I’d like that number to be more like ~600 calories, but I won’t bug myself about it.

I have to go and decorate our house with Christmas lights. Tomorrow, I hope it will be a good, peaceful day. I’m sure me and my Love will enjoy our time together. He’s coming over, so we’ll decorate the tree, and exchange presents (we do this on Christmas eve, not in the morning). For lunch, as usual, we’re having fish, but not the traditional one like we use to have every year, and which I skipped, every year. Now, I’m having a salmon Any good recipe suggestions? I really want it to be yummy.

Oh, and yeah. I tried some bites of my cookies, and they are ok. Too sweet for me. One of our family members( sth like that, not really family) brought some amazing desserts, she does that every year, so maybe I’ll try some bread she made, without sugar and fat. I just crave my foods, oatmeal,pumpkin puree, stuff like that. Sugar-loaded stuff aren’t my thing anymore. But I sure plan to indulge in Paris. Croissants, baguettes, cheese,wine,chocolate. Yummy!

I still don’t have my camera, but I’ll make sure you get some pictures soon

Marina

Evening y’all! (all two of you who are reading me )

I’ve been baking like crazy!

Yesterday afternoon, and today from 12 to 6 pm. My god, so much cookies, so much sugar and butter. I smell like a giant gingerbread!

Yesterday I made orange raspberry cookies, coconut cookies and…oh yeah, rugelach, and today, chocolate hazelnut biscotti, gingerbread sandwich cookies with cream cheese filling, and a cookie-chocolate-coconut roll.

I also exercised! It was great, I discovered exercise tv, and I love those videos! Yesterday I did ballet strength workout, and today, some kind of cardio. Both were 30 min, just enough.

My eats aren’t really amazing these days. The best thing I had yesterday was my good night drink Warm cocoa with splash of Mozart chocolate liqueur! Divine. And this morning, I made pancakes. I wish I could show you a picture, but my camera is on its way to me )

So, pancakes were made with coffee and spices. They were good, but they definitely needed some sweetener, my toppings didn’t do the job. I made them in cookie shaping thingies, which didn’t turn out as well as I hoped, but they did look cute

Throughout the day, I ate some dried fruit, fresh fruit, lots of bread, stuff like that. I didn’t feel like making myself a proper lunch, but now, I’m waiting for my dinner to be done I made stuffed mushrooms. Stuffing is mashed beans, mixed with some garlic and spices, a bit of ketchup and a slice of turkey ham, and on the top, a little piece of smoked Emmental. I can’t wait! I’ve been craving stuffed mushrooms for like 2 weeks, since my Love’s dad made them.

I also went for a walk today, I had so many clothes on, so thank god, I didn’t freeze. Tomorrow is going to be a snow joy day. I plan to wrap myself up in a ski suit, and go out to play with the snow and my Love. Can’t wait

I hope you’re having a great start of this holiday week!

Marina

Good morning!

I am a lazy blogger Yesterday me, my mom, Love and his family went to a shopping trip. We chose the wrong day, because it was snowing so hard, and we were driving so slowly, like we’re transporting cows in our car ) Luckily, all went well. I did some shopping, got some cute stuff, and ate sushi! Sushi was the highlight of the day of course. I also tried miso soup for the first time, and I really like it!

In the evening I also exercised a bit, nothing much, but at least it is something. I haven’t done anything in the past few weeks, so any exercise is welcome.

Today I’m starting to bake Christmas cookies, I can’t wait. I just have to go grocery shopping for it, but the weather is really frightful. I mean, it finally stopped snowing, but there’s so much snow, and I really don’t want to freeze all the time.

Btw, it’s Sunday, and I woke up at 7 am. It sucks, I need so much sleep, but I seem not to be able to get any. I guess my body just has to accept the fact that I can sleep longer now

Ok, time to make some warming oats for breakfast

I hope you’re all having a lovely weekend

Marina

Hi everyone!

I didn’t post in quite some time, but I was busy and didn’t have very much time. Yesterday, our friends came over for a cup of mulled wine and cherry clafouti.

It was fun and relaxing evening, just what I needed. Although I think I ate too much crackers with cheese. But who cares, right ?

I came to my hometown today, and I can’t say I’m filled with joy. My mom is a bit down, and I don’t have the energy to make her happier :/ But tomorrow we’re going to a road (shop) trip with my Love and his parents, so I hope that will do the trick of making us happier and more close.

Anyways, I haven’t eaten much today ( although I keep thinking if it is too much), so I better think of something to cook. I have a beet and a small zucchini, so maybe I’ll make some roasted salad

I hope you’re having a nice weekend!

Marina

Good evening!

Oh yeah, I aced my Anatomy test. In 20 minutes

I can’t say I’m flying right now, because in my opinion, it was too easy, and I didn’t really show everything I know. The professor asked me just a few simple questions, and to be honest, I wasn’t really brilliant in answering them. I hate simple questions, I prefer harder stuff

But anyways, I’m done, and now I can finally relax. Only two more days until Christmas break! I can’t wait to start baking all those cookies and nice stuff.

Today I started my day with traditional banana oats with chocolate.

It was lovely, although nut butter sucked I don’t know why, but I was hungry two hours later already! I had a muffin and an apple during the morning, and then fast lunch with my Love in some kind of self service restaurant. We planned on going to some cool italian place, but we didn’t have time So I settled with salad, baked fish and veggies doused in cream and baked.I also had a cafe latte with coconut. Just what I needed before my exam

I had to go to ice skating to get a signature, so I just did two laps on the ice and went home I don’t like ice skating, too boring Town looks lovely, although I don’t like it because it’s too dirty, but with snow and all the Christmas light, it has some kind of a charm. It was so good to come home, after 13 hours away in cold.

Sushi is ready, home-made by my Love. Can’t wait to eat that, watch Bones and relax. A well deserved rest

Hope you’re having a nice day too

Marina

Hey!

Yeah, tomorrow is my exam,and I’m trying my best not to freak out. It’s going ok I think.

Yesterday I went to bed at 8:30. And slept till 6 am. Yeah, that’s a lot of hours, but I was still tired today. I had an unusual breakfast, one scrambled egg with ham and a bit of feta, toasted bread with some jam, and like 2/3 of my muffin. So much food! But it fueled me up pretty good for the cold that was outside.Brr! I sorted that thing with the exam schedule, so I’m having my exam at 4pm tomorrow. After the whole day of classes. But that’s fine. I’ll grab a coffee and some food before it, and have a relaxing time with my love, so I hope I’ll be fine.

I didn’t study really much today, I guess not enough. But I’m just sick of it, I can’t to it anymore. I want my Christmas holidays finally!

So, my eats today were all very yummy. When I came home, I didn’t feel like preparing anything for lunch yet, so I just grabbed a banana and some snacks. I made lunch at 3pm, when my tummy was seriously needing food. Look what I made!

With all the cold outside, I keep craving simple yummy warm food,so that’s what I had. Polenta topped with emmentaler, and sautéed mushrooms and leeks with tomato sauce.It was so yummy! And I felt decently satisfied after. But not for long. An hour later, hunger again.So I had some corn flakes and raisins with milk. I can’t help it, I need such food when I’m studying. I guess I’m allowing myself to indulge in such foods,like corn flakes, bread, healthy muffins.And I guess for the most people, that really isn’t indulging. So I’m not worrying about eating too much, or eating crappy. I listen what my body and soul needs and craves.

I also had a relaxing long warm bath today. I took some magazines, light up a candle, made myself a cocktail, and relax. It was just what I needed. And I had an amazing thought. I look good. My Love loves me, the way I look now, and he’ll love me if I gain a pound or two. It’s not like I’ll turn into a whale if I eat a bit more, and don’t exercise for some time. If I get less toned, it’s not like I can’t get back to toned body. I need to stop bitching about food, and start to enjoy it. Whether I eat something that isn’t “good” or not. There are more important things in life then my body image. And probably, I see only flaws in the mirror. Flaws that nobody else sees.

I love when I make such conclusions I just hope I’ll stick to them this time )

Time to go and watch Gossip Girl. And some apple munching to will happen.

Please, keep fingers crossed for me tomorrow! I’m really scared, deep down

Marina

Evening!

Yesterday after my post, instead of going to study some more, I did foodies’ favourite way of procrastinating. Baking

I did these muffins : Orange date wonder muffins Well, I used whole wheat flour, didn’t use molasses because I don’t have any, cow’s milk, and I didn’t have enough oats. They are a bit, well, they are not full in taste. I mean, next time, I’ll definitely put more spices and an extra orange in it. But they taste awesome warm, with a smother of some fruit preserve.

After my baking adventure, my Love quizzed me, so my study craving was satisfied

For dinner I indulged in simple corn flakes and milk, with some muffin crumbled in.

Today, my breakfast was bland. I don’t know why. I made banana oats, and had them with almond butter and a half of the muffin crumbled. They were really….bland. My almond butter didn’t turn out so creamy and melty this time

I just hope that on the day of my exam, I’ll be able to have some good chocolate nut butter oats. That’s my tradition. I indulge in a crazy yummy breakfast always before my exam. It helps my mood.

Today was an ok day. I went to Anatomy, talked a bit with my professor. He wrote me an extra few hours that I didn’t attend, which is really nice of him. Every hour= more money I earn. He even asked me if I’m interested in a student exchange in America.Hell yeah! (his first question was how good I am with English, I think I’m ok ).

Some stuff blew up with my schedule for exam, and I have to go tomorrow to uni to sort it out. I really am pissed about it, because I’ll need to go to some classes tomorrow, instead on Wednesday, so I won’t have so much time to learn tomorrow. Damn it.

And now, I’m just too tired and exhausted. My face is burning up, I feel cold, and I am so damn sleepy. And I had two cups of coffee, and a cup of black tea when I came  home. One would expect that to wake me up…but noooo

Today, we finally got some snow! It is freaking cold outside, and all white. I love it! I can’t wait to get back to my Hometown, and enjoy in its winter beauty. I’ll make sure to take some photos to show you then.

How is your Monday going?

Marina

Hey everyone!

I took a short break from studying so that I could write a post and give my tushy a small break from that uncomfortable chair.

So, yesterday was lovely, my boy got his baccalaureate’s degree, I was so proud We went with his parents afterwards to a pattiserie that serves popular cheesecakes here in Studyland. Of course, I didn’t have none. I just didn’t feel like eating something I’m not craving at the moment. We came home at 8pm, and I was pretty hungry. After all, I didn’t eat for quite some time, except for some gummy candy. Of course, I didn’t feel like cooking, I was exhausted, so my Love made my an amazing dinner.

So, that’s a bowl made of a perfect seed bread, stuffed with warm pumpkin puree, yogurt and some more seeds and pistachios. I loved it. I also had more yogurt and an apple after it. I didn’t eat the whole bread, just like the half of it.

The rest of the bread I had for my early Sunday breakfast. I woke up at 6am to study, so I grabbed my Advent’s tea, sandwich and an orange. I planned on making green oats when my Love was awake, but that fell into water because my spinach was too wilted And I was craving those oats so much! Anyways, for lunch I made a veggie stew. I love making it, it’s so simple and tasty!

I always buy this lentil/bean/barley/whatnot/ mix, and I soak it in water overnight. Today I just tossed rinsed mixed onto a bit of olive oil, cooked that for about 45 min, added tomato puree and frozen veggies. Spices included of course. It is very simple and delicious.

I also had a little treat afterwards

The picture is blurry, but that’s a date with a small piece of dark chocolate.

I don’t know why, I guess out of boredom, but I can eat so much when I’m heavy studying. I snacked so much today. pistachios, bran flakes, dried fruit…again and again. I just hope I’ll be able to fit in my (smaller number then usual) pants. I guess I won’t be able after holidays

I can’t wait to come home and start baking cookies, playing piano, exercising, taking walks in my beautiful hometown..enjoying snow…

It’s getting colder here, so I hope I’ll be seeing some snowflakes soon! Fingers crossed.

Only 3 more days until my exam…

Marina

Good morning!

It’s 6:15 am on the Saturday morning, and I’m awake and preparing to study. Yesterday I didn’t have time for posting, because I came home late,did some studying, got some exciting news and of course, struggled about food and body image. I don’t know what’s up with me these past few days/weeks. I guess I feel guilty because of not exercising. And I hate it. I mean, I don’t want to develop some kind od eating disorder, but I’m sure as hell on a way to it. All that stress I’m dealing with right know is messing up my head.

Well, anyways, in spite of all those thoughts, I do keep eating Look how my breakfast was yummy yesterday. Apple pancakes with maple syrup and berry jam. I ran out of any kind of nut butters, and I’m going cold turkey

Today I’ll be studying a lot and going to a…I don’t know how should I call it, but my boyfriend got his baccalaureate degree 6 months ago, and finally his uni has the celebration of it. I know it’s not big, but I plan to dress nicely, put maybe some mascara on ( I don’t wear make-up, I like the all natural “I don’t have time to sleep” look), and enjoy. Maybe later we’ll go with his parents somewhere, in a restaurant or in a caffe’e. I know I could use a break from studying.

So, I will be irregular with the posting and  commenting. My exam is on Wednesday, and until then, I’ll be pretty crazy, anxious and worried.

Enjoy your weekend!

Marina